chaddrack-the-prof

I hate December. Its a combination of X-mass and my birthday. I get really depressed and start to hate every one but i do enjoy giving gifts so there's that. As for my birthday i always felt is eclipsed by X-mass, sense i was a kid its felt this way. But I'm hoping to have a better birthday this year my friend is taking me to a Black Angles show for my birthday and im taking the week of for my from work. well thats it for now. Marry x-mass or what the fuck ever.

so have you ever said a small comment and not expect any thing about what it was or why you said it. well i do this all the fucking time and most of the time it gos nowhere, ends be for it begins. some times it mean comment and it ends badly(witch is most of the time with me but fuck you). but this time all it was was a small compliment(by the way i can here my neighbors having sex in the apt above me while i type this). i work at a shity big box store and we have night crew that comes in when i leave. one of the guys that i never spoke to was wearing a bad brains shirt(whom i love). so i told him that it was an awesome shirt. that's all i sa

i have been playing with the idea of take a vow of silence as a form of meditation. so on Dec. 17 2010 i chose to do it. i had the day off  and planned to do some shopping with the wife. she was not happy about the whole thing at first but i explained that i was doing it as a way to find new ways to communicate other than verbal speech. that i think we as a people depend on too much. so any way i woke up that morning and rolled over to Luz and smiled at her, i think she knew what that meant. so we got up and she explained that we were go to hang out with our friend Kim at her cafe. before we left the house Luz gave me a marker and a pad. the